Jackass

Lately me and my friends have been watching all of the old jackass episodes as well as movies 1,2 and 2.5. I am obsessed, I understand many people think what they do is stupid but it sure is entertaining. I mean if you can get paid, for riding down streets in shopping carts, and snorting wasabi why not right? I'm sure they all have serious medical issues due to half of the stunts they pull, for example Steve-O himself has what, 40 of the 48 STDs that are out there, the majority of which he probably didn't get from intercourse but probably from butt chugging beer, or snorting an earth worm and pulling it out of his mouth. I know I'm being a little graphic, but they all actually do all this shit and it airs and they actually get paid. Steve-O said this was the only option for him really, he hates school and work and he loves to make people laugh so this seemed perfect. He actually dropped out of college within the first year and went to join the Ringaling Brothers Circus College and graduated there, only to be denied by the circus. Honestly, I don't know about eating leeches or sitting in a used porta potty, but I would not mind doing stunts and risking hurting myself as a career. Half the stunts they do look awesome and are probably a lot of fun, even if you hurt yourself you can say you did it and have it on tape for all to see. I think what they do is HILARIOUS and it is honestly my dream to meet one of them. I know they say before each episode "don't try this at home," but after watching it so much recently I've become inspired so don't be surprised if you see me on the next jackass or more likely in the hospital. They are actually coming out with a jackass 3 soon which I am stoked for, everything they do is funny so this movie will probably be a hoot. I'm excited and I recommend everyone go see it when it hits theaters and support my future husband Steve-O.

Corrrtacacaaaaaa

Today is the most popular holiday celebrated at Suny Cortland. It’s the big game, Cortland vs Ithaca.. That is why I have started to write this so late, because I was so busy celebrating for the game. Unfortunately Cortland lost and it was a close game, it was intense, and I could feel the pressure the football players had, with screaming fans praying that they will make the first down. One side of the stadium bled the color red, with the opposite side was filled by a dull blue and a yellow that didn’t shine quite as bright as the sun. But no matter what, as Cortland always says “win or lose we still booze,” and that is exactly what the entire school intends on doing. No matter the time, no matter the score, we will still have a good time and that’s what I love about Cortland. The school spirit in this town is amazing and I enjoy every minute of helping keep the school spirit level at its all time high. Cortaca is so ridiculous, and when I tell my friends what I’m doing for the day they always repeat themselves and ask again, what Im doing for the day. Then I tell them the true definition of what Cortaca is and they love the entire concept. That is why tons of my friends always try and visit during this insanely crazy weekend. I honestly might say that I Love this holiday more than Christmas and I’m so extremely excited to be a part of this celebration. Sadly we did lose but like I said we still get to booze, because nothing can break Cortland’s sprit or pride no matter the number of points on the score board. Thank god I am a part of a school full of pride and respect for each other.

Food

I recently had some sort of epiphany. I've been on and off diets trying to keep a toned body, but I realized this past weekend (after being home and around my Italian grandma), I love food. Why diet when there's exercise to keep you in shape. I'm pretty busy with school and everything but there is always time to go to the gym, at least an hour or more everyday. So why can't I just eat whatever I want to, as much as I want to and still stay in shape? I guess I can, and it's not really as hard as I thought. As long as I choose the right foods and not go completely overboard, I should be fine. I mean, when I first came to Cortland, I was chowing down on every carb known to man at Neubig, at the grill getting an All American Burger, or a buffalo chicken wedge from Racquet, and basically every night you would see my at Friendlys. I began to substitute all of those delicious meals with salads and water. Now I LOVE soda, and ice cream and that buffalo chicken sandwich is my weakness, but if I went to the gym I wouldn't have to completely get rid of those foods and I can have them on occasion. I mean why get rid of things you love in your life when there are other options. My moms side of the family is Italian and that’s definitely where I got my love for food, I can cook pretty decently when I try, so why throw out my food loving heritage and my skills for cooking because I’m scared I’ll gain weight? Screw it, I would rather have a toned and athletic body and be able to eat what I want then be skinny and fragile and eat lettuce for lunch and dinner. I love chocolate, I love pizza, I LOVE mashed potatoes and I LOVE mac and cheese. They are probably some of the worst’s foods for you, but I still love them… so I refuse to forget about them completely. I’m going to be smarter with what I eat, and if I can’t make it to the gym one day, maybe that will be the day where I have salad for lunch rather then a pasta bake. Smart and healthy decisions will lead you down a smart and healthy path.

Tupac

There is so much conspiracy around Tupac’s death; I honestly believe he’s truly dead. Why would he fake his death? And all of the “proof” people say they have is never accurate or factual whatsoever. I'm a huge Tupac fan, and when I ask the question “Biggie or Tupac?” I often get Biggie responses and just shake my head. It's not that I don't like Biggie, believe me he's amazing but Tupac brings something so much more to the table and his ideas have so much more meaning behind them, for me at least. One of my entire walls is decorated with Tupac pictures and poems. I have over 200 songs and counting as well as his book of poems called The Rose That Grew From Concrete. He has a song called Changes, Until the end of time, California love (hence my California blog), Do for love; all of which have so much meaning to them as well as the additional fact that the beats are awesome. Some of the ideas that he has come up with are so simple, but the way he states them in his lyrics or in his poems make you look at that simple idea in a totally different way. I wish he were still alive; I would absolutely die to go to a Tupac concert, that’s one thing I would love to go back in time and do asap. I hope no one reading has anything against Tupac because he is literally one of my idols and he looked at life in a way only seriously intelligent and open-minded people can see it and I admire him for sharing his ideas through his music and poetry. For those of you who haven’t heard Tupac, ummmm yeah, but for those of you who hardly listen or don’t know too much stuff by or about him I seriously suggest that you download, or no, BUY some of his music and look up a poem or two of his. With some of his poetry you actually have to stop and really think to fully understand the meaning. Some of his poems I still don’t FULLY understand to this day, but each time I read them I try to find something new to interpret. And I’m sure a lot of you have heard his music, but next time you listen to one of his songs really HEAR it and listen to the lyrics word for word, some of what his says is extremely insightful. I definitely like to think a lot and I tend over think things way too often that is one of the main reasons I love him. Tupac makes me think with the ideas he has and the way he phrases them. I can tell that he had a mind somewhat like mine, that often wandered deep into so many different concepts about life, love and everything else that’s essential and meaningful to us.

Time

Time is the indefinite continued process of existents and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. Time is everything, and at the same times its nothing. Without time where would we be exactly? How could anything be, without the idea of time? But do we think too much of time sometimes, or take it too seriously? Sometimes I feel like we abuse its existents by sitting around doing absolutely nothing with our lives, and time is treated like nothing. Imagine if all of the clocks in the world stopped working and there was absolutely no way to tell time, no sun clocks, nothing. Everything would turn chaotic and nothing would be organized and settled down. Time can be the answer to a lot of questions and worries as well. It’s true that everything will happen in time, and time really does heal all. As much as people want to say nothing will change, I will never be where I want to be, none of that is ever true if you actually want it. Time is indefinite, as stated in it’s own definition. It will never end, as long as you are here time continues as does everything that moves along with it and you will have endless chances. Everything that should and can happen will happen eventually. Whether it’s for the best or the worst, it will happen because as times goes on change must occur, its inevitable. When has anyone had a day exactly the same? Even if you have the same classes, same practice and same dinner, there is still something that is different from the day before. And as time goes on so does life, it’s an ongoing cycle, that for you, personally will never end. Without time there would be no past, no future. Each second that is passing by would not be there without the concept of time. Without time, there would be no yesterday or last week. It's such a weird concept to think about, but time is everything. Each minute, is a minute either used to the fullest extent, or wasted on nothing. I guess that’s why you often hear "live in the moment," "live each minute like it’s your last," and all those other 'time is of the essence' quotes. Their smart, why not listen to them? If you use each minute for something productive, something you want to do, whether its right or wrong its part of time and the continuing process. Everything happens for a reason and with every action there is a reaction. So stop taking time for granted, and realize that it’s everything, you will end up doing more with the time you have now, and things will more likely end up as they should much quicker.

California

I kind of really want to move to California, more Southern California to be exact. Somewhere where I can have a house right on the beach with a porch overlooking the ocean. Where I can sit comfortably and toke nightly in the warm weather while listening to the sounds of the ocean. Warm weather is definitely a MUST HAVE for me, especially after living up here where when its 50 degrees everyone is outside in shorts. My real dream would be to move to Australia or Italy, or maybe even Ireland with all the open fields. But as of now, my realistic dream is to be in Cali on the beach sippin' on coronas hanging with friends, new and old. The scenery in Southern Cali is beautiful, from the trees to the beaches, to the animals. The warm weather attracts so much beauty and I'm a sucker for beautiful scenery. Once I graduate or possibly sooner if I decide to transfer, Cali is where I plan on residing. Florida is full of old retired people, or crazy clubbing teens. Texas... yeah no. California just makes so much sense, if I spoke Spanish I would move to Mexico in a heartbeat, but it would be pretty difficult to do anything down there until I know enough Spanish so I can at least know how to order a burrito. I'm an incredibly laid back person, and I feel like that is the definition of California. I mean, only laid back people would elect The Terminator as their governor. Being able to be close to LA and Hollywood is also a plus, I don't really get star struck but I plan on doing something having to do with video production (changing my major back to communications) and being anywhere near LA would be a plus for my career. NYC would also be ideal, but I live less than an hour from it and it basically served as a second home for me so a change of pace would be nice. Plus LA is a lot different than NYC, I definitely wouldn't live in LA, I would need a much more secluded relaxed spot, but it would be nice to be somewhat near it especially if I pursue the job I want. Also Las Vegas is somewhat near Cali and I've always wanted to go there, especially after watching The Hangover. Being by the beach would make life so much more chill and I honestly would be content moving there on impulse by myself. I know one person in California and thats my friend who just moved there, I don't even know where exactly. But having the life style I've always dreamed of is enough for me, and I'm sure everything else will just follow. Even if it doesn't, I would personally be exactly where I need to be.

Love

Love is often confusing, complicated and annoying. Many people, especially girls, go crazy over stupid relationship situations as if they believe they are only going to fall in love once. My friends tend to cry over these issues constantly and not to say I haven't had boy problems of my own, but I often look at situations many different ways. Ask your parents if they were high school sweethearts, or if they didn't have problems while they were together. Its life, and everyone goes through it. You just got to understand that if you lose your first love, or even your second or your third, its not the end and it never is. I personally am not going through a break up, but one of my friends is and the other just got back together with a boyfriend whom just the other day she wanted to kill. I'm not saying don't give second chances, everyone deserves them. But there is a difference from giving another chance to someone you really love, and giving someone another chance simply because you don't want to be alone. Hey, being single isn't the end of the world, its actually quite fun sometimes. You get to play the field and see your options, while in the meanwhile having a blast and not worrying about your boyfriend or girlfriend getting mad because you took a picture with a guy or girl they don't know. Love is complicated and its also inevitable. You don't need someone to make you happy, you have yourself, your friends and your family. There is nothing wrong about wanting to fall in love and have that support and knowledge that someone loves you back but its really not necessary and there's no reason to lose your mind over something so simple. Many people tend to worry that they won't find someone, but if you're meant to find someone you will. My great aunt never got married and I have to say its sad seeing her in a house all by herself, but she has her friends, neighbors and family over all the time. Girls that are 18, 19 (my friends) go CRAZY trying to find someone or trying to fix a relationship that has already failed, but your 19.... thats nothing. You have so much more to live, what's the point in wasting the time you have now trying to find someone that will eventually just fall into your lap because everything happens the way its supposed to in the end. You really don't know the true meaning of love until you have truly found it and when you do you'll realize that with all of those past relationships you just wasted so much time trying to mend them. Every relationship and every bump in life is just a lesson learned and its part of the plan to help you better yourself and help you not just settle down with something or someone that isn't right for you.

True love is the souls recognition of its counterpoint in another (stole it from wedding crashers, yes). But when you find true love, you'll know and there will be nothing that can take it from you because it is simply SUPPOSED to stay with you.